Healing does not happen in the body.
It does not happen through treatment.
Healing happens when we give it new meaning.
The symptoms that I’ve been trying to hide from the world
the ones that
take me down for days or weeks or months
keep me from going out or buying new things
stop me from pursuing love
are signs of my birthing new earth.
My whole belly is full of humanity
all its beauty and all its sludge
in one glorious mix.
What if my struggle is not my struggle,
but a spiritual warfare that all of humanity is now engaged in?
What if my real body - the one beyond all the symptoms -
is burning out all that is dead?
What if magic exists?
And by magic, I don’t mean the kind that manipulates and lies, curses or destroys.
By magic I mean love
because that is the only magic there is.
What if this healing says I must show up as my most vulnerable self?
No longer hiding away saying, "I feel fine. Everything is okay."
What if the symptoms never go away?
They may never go away.
But that is not what they say.
They say, "Speak. Tell them about me. It is not about you. It is about all of humanity."
What if it’s not about me?
That changes everything.
- originally written July 25, 2017